Financial screwing students

I am pretty sick and tired of collges milking me of my money and maybe even my future... I got an email from TAP (NY state financial aide) saying that i am elligible again next school year for about $1500 a semester. I got this email this year as well but the school "de-certified" me since i am technically a dependent student on an out-of-state parent. I swear if they grant me the TAP again at the beginning of the semester and then take it away again half way through so that I owe money again I am going to print this email (which says no where that my eligibility is in the hands of the school, if the NY government says i get it then i should get it!) and raise hell in the bursar's office until they fix it or give me more money. The TAP money is NY state grant money, so thats less debt that I would have to start paying back when i graduate. Seriously this financial system is so fucking corrupted that they are robbing the college generation blind and then when we come into power of the country we're all in fucking debt and there will be an even worse economic crisis than there is now but the assholes in charge want instant gratification so it the future must not matter! ...OK, rant over. lol

R.I.P.

So it's 5:20 in the morning and I can't sleep.  I have a lot of random nuisance-like problems lately, such as tons of homework, finals, sickness, money (lack-there-of) and wildfires threatening my family's homes back in SC.

SC Wildfires

But the very worst of all  this week, to paramount all of these relatively minor issues, is the very sad loss of my Grandmother Lillian.  I managed to surmount the courage to visit her before she passed on Thursday night and the image is still burned into my brain.  She was surrounded by family, fighting for breath and for her life.  Her emphysema was complicated by an infection, which was brought on by a compromise in her immune system from her rheumatoid arthritis medication.  It pretty much rendered her lungs all but useless, and it was such irreparable damage that she signed a d.n.r. and was made comfortable until her passing at 6 am in the morning days later.

R.I.P. Grandma Lil

Susan Boyle Sensation

Susan Boyle

So I love musicals and i love people beating first impressions and stereotypes. This woman has proven people wrong internationally that it doesn't matter WHAT anyone looks like, you can be beautiful and talented reguardless. This woman sings "I Dreamed a Dream" better than the woman from the original London cast of Les Miserables. It just goes to show that people shouldn't judge others on face value and first impressions.

Baby Shower!!

Weekend of Hell

So my mother's baby shower was this Saturday in South Carolina. I drove with two of my aunts and my cousin over FIFTEEN HOURS down there on friday and FIFTEEN HOURS back on sunday. The drive was only supposed to take twelve. It was an eventful weekend full of ridiculous family drama and selfishness. My mom is currently 8 months pregnant, tired, and emotional. My Aunt proceeded in first surprising my mom that we were there and then was more concerned about shopping the entire day and a half we were there. After the actual shower, which was spend by them smoking cigarettes outside and behaving in a "cliquey" manner in front of my mother's friends and family-in-law. They sat through the first half of the opening of baby gifts, which was their own gifts, and then proceeded to hover outside for the rest of the party until cake time. After cake they left in a rush to go shopping and did not see or speak to my mom until the next morning when we left. Nothing like using your sister's pregnancy as an excuse to get out of town for two days just to go shopping, and yet continuing to cry "poverty" when it came to gas money. They currently aren't speaking, and i was trapped in the middle of all this conflict. Gotta love family!